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Little Something

©️2020

With everything in the world, how has it made you feel?? Have you been struggling?? Are you struggling to keep your head above water?? Or, are you just skating by for the time being??

I can tell you all, it has been rough and not a cakewalk for me. I am trying every day to stay positive for myself but also for everyone else as well around me. It’s not fun.

I feel lost and drained. There have been days, I can’t pick up a hook, to have my fingers running through the fiber. It just hardens my heart and makes me cry because that’s what makes me feel happy.

It’s my sense where I belong and feel whole, without it I feel like I am nothing. I can’t even look at myself, as I just feel disgusted. Lately, that is what I have been feeling.

But lately, I can’t even smile amongst not crocheting like I used to. Now, I have a bigger dinner plate to worry and I don’t know what I am going to do about it. I don’t even want to look at it.

Something in 32 years of my life I never imagined. My brain is still dismantled and trying to regroup, putting those pieces back into place. Trying to understand it all, but how can I.

Trust me this isn’t an easy process. Will it ever get easy?? That I can’t answer, because my life has never been a walk in the park. Every time I think it has gotten to that point, I have been slammed dunked back in the face again.

Picking up the pieces yet again and trying again to make sense of them, trust me it isn’t an easy process. But you know I do it and will keep doing it. Because that is what we have to do.

It is what has kept me strong and will keep making me stronger in the years to come. Life will come back to me, where a smile will be a smile. Where I no longer have to fake it to make it.

We just have to go these lengths to get where we need to be in this life. Trust me, after these hurdles life, will be better then I know it and you know it.

So, put your smile on with me and help me get through these rough patches that we call…life.

©️2020

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Bit About Myself

©️2020

Do you ever think of what people think of you? Do you ever think of what people say about you? Do you believe what you hear? Or do you brush it off like nothing can hurt you?

When, I was younger wasn’t easy for me. I felt like I had this target placed upon. Words constantly hitting me like daggers for every direction. It made me hide in a little ball not wanting to face the world at all and not care about myself. It was away, just to protect myself from getting hurt from everyone around me.

I took those words and wrapped myself tight in them. They become apart of me, to hide the true me from myself and everyone around me. I allowed them to define me as a person. It was the only thing I knew how to do. I can tell you this if I didn’t, I know from deep inside I wouldn’t be here today.

It’s a proud moment that I didn’t allow it to take my life. Words can be the most demeaning part of us. The meaning of words take on a whole aspect on how they are used. They damage you as a person right into the core of who you are and take control. At that moment, my life changed.

People constantly are still telling I take things personal. That I can agree with. By the simple fact, how I have been talked to you and treated. I have tired my hardest just to walk away or block them out, but that has been harder than it sounds. To change things isn’t easy whatsoever, but all I can say is that I am trying.

What I want to tell you now, is that I am starting to look at my life differently. Appreciating myself more as person than ever in my life, because I have realized, this is the only life I have to live. I am living for anyone around me. Why should I care what people think ow what they have to say to me?

Now, I just allow them to say whatever comes across their minds but no longer taking that to heart. I still listen and now, I chose what I what to do with those from there. It’s all apart of this new journey I am along to change and grow more as the person I am.

I can tell you this, it’s not easy. You’re waiting for that moment to slip back into your old ways, but the stronger you get the easier it will be. Now, when I look in the mirror, I smile at myself and it’s the most truest smile I can give myself, then before. I tell myself I am proud and not going to give up or take that step back.

What I want to pass along is, don’t let words define you as person. Start knowing you as who you are, then take that with you to change you. You can’t change everyone around you, you can change you. Start today by putting that foot down, that will only take you higher.

Start with you to break the habit. Start with you to love yourself, before loving those around you. Start with you being you. Start by making the change. Today is always a new day, never what it will have in store for you. Your day is today.

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Meet The Maker

I want to proudly introduce myself to you. My name is Colt and I started my crochet journey back in 2016. It all begin on the day after Thanksgiving. My sister came down to visit us, she had these tools and yarn in hand (which to me sounded all crazy and weird). I really couldn’t take my eyes off the magic she was creating. That was my life changing moment. I asked my mother in law if she would teach me this new wonder. She grabbed some black yarn and hook, started the circle for and handed me this adventure. I couldn’t hold the yarn and hook properly at first, because my mind couldn’t grab the concept at first. It was like teaching a baby how to work the first time. I put myself down through the whole process and almost gave up. My determination and confidence, is what finally got me the grasp. After, that moment it was life changing. All things were just popping in and out of my head, just all the things I want to accomplish and take on.

After, month of tackling the basic stitches and mastering them, I decided it was time to dive into pattern reading. There was this one pattern that I wanted to try out, as I thought I was ready, so many attempts and frustrations, I told myself no more. I tucked it away and said a pray to help me get through it. Two days later, I pulled it out and everything went as a smooth. This was the door that opened my journey to new possibilities. With many different patterns I accomplished and mastered, everybody told me I should start my own business and start getting my stuff out there. So, I contacted my older sister just see her thoughts about going in with me to create one of our own, I just couldn’t be happier that it’s here today. This fun creative hobby I dove into 2yrs ago has finally became what it is today and couldn’t be happier.

Now as it is 2019, I have started writing my own patterns and getting my ideas out into the wild world. I plan to keep writing more patterns and do more blogging, to get ideas out there. This has been one incredible journey of a lifetime of happiness. I am blessed to be apart a great community of makers and new makers. Over a year and a half, I got into pattern testing and can’t explain how much it means to me. For helping other designers make their creativeness become a reality and to get out into the wild. These are the one things that keep my inspiration in thriving mode and that energy to keep it alive. I have met so many amazing people in this journey, that fill my heart. My husband, family and in laws, have been my biggest supporters and fans, that I am appreciative to have in my quarters, to make the drive real and joy to keep creating.

Little fun facts about me: married my best friend (couldn’t be in this world without him); been married since January 28, 2015; have two little daschund (that I adore); yarn hoarder; friendly personality; honesty is what I live by; born and raised in Wyoming (still a resident); going after my long life dream to become a nurse and excited; I love anything that deals with becoming one with nature (hiking, bouldering, backpacking, rock climbing, rafting, kayaking, site seeing); traveling is my passion (especially going to national parks); plus this little fact nobody really knows about me, I am a baker.

XOXO